Pain – personal glory?

February 9, 2010

Dated : 02/02/2010

The core of the sun burns white hot and that is why it helps in sustaining life on earth. The lamp burns itself to provide light to the world. But does it really hurt them to do it? Is this pain as unbearable as it is to us? Do they also want to scream when fire burns them into nothingness? If yes then the proverb is acceptable. Else, it does not qualify for such a comparison.

Pain is significant to everyone. We consider it to be the worst and also have this strange urge to prove that ours is the worst pain in the world. Then you come across people who are in different kind of pain and you objectively try to compare it with your own and try to justify to yourself that your pain is still the worst. You find a strange pleasure in such analogy and its not a rational one either. Its completely illogical and often deterrent to your happiness and yet you want it. You want to be in such a pain for it holds a much subtler pleasure which can be deemed a dark one in generally accepted classification. This pleasure is a true one, in the sense that you actually feel that pleasure spread across your heart, but it does not carry the warmth of other positive pleasure. Never.

So ultimately its a choice that you are faced with, as always. Choices define the course of our life and ultimately there will be some people in life who will influence these choices yet, only you will be responsible for the choices since you made them and not those who influenced you. Choosing something so as to not hurt someone is also a choice that you yourself made.


Fear not!

June 20, 2008

It goes on forever,
Never ends, but sleeps often
I thought I could throw it out
Seems I was in the wrong.

It’s there, deep down inside, hidden
Hidden behind the smiles, the jokes, the laughter
Oh! How I wish I could throw it out
Yet the Pain slips deeper, into the bottom

It grows with the help of my fears
Watered by my tears
The more I try to throw it out
The more it bleeds deep inside, within
I thought this pain was due to my fears
Then I realized; Pain was the fear!